America, the Unusual
I ended my last post with a reference to my long-awaited trip to the US to see family and friends, so I feel like I owe you an account of what it was like being assimilated back into the ‘civilized’ (as the Takers call it in Ishmael by Daniel Quinn). I was a little more than ready to be back in home territory after the problems I encountered at the airport in Guatemala City. As some of you already know, I tend to fly stand-by for a considerably low price, because I am blessed to have an uncle that has worked for an airline for over 30 years. However, my luck seemed to have rubbed off this particular week. Evidently, the power, including all airport computers, went down for two whole days before the actual day I was planning to fly. I overheard that all airlines were forced to do everything manual – check-in, assigning seats, ticketing, and luggage. One traveler claimed that his flight didn’t even have a list of passengers, so the airline had no clue who was even flying with them that day…..scary! Anyways, to make a long story short, the day I showed up for my flight, there were 70 people overbooked…and the next day, there were 40 people overbooked. Being the idiot that I am, I waited around for the first day, thinking that maybe I could get on….and after a flight delay of over two hours, the airline finally took me to reclaim my luggage so that I could try again the next day. The whole situation was disorganized, confusing, futile…and just my typical Guatemala. At this point, all that kept running through my mind was, ‘America, here I come!’So after purchasing an extremely expensive ticket and practically sprinting through US Customs, I was immediately overcome with almost relief. Literally, the first thing I did was search for the nearest water fountain. It was just so nice to be able to drink water freely out of a fountain and not have to boil it first. Just the accessibility of it made me laugh! I then proceeded to the rest room, only to discover afterwards that I had put my paper in the trash can instead of down the toilet. (I continued to do this for almost two days before I got the hang of it.) Walking through the airport to meet my parents, I was giddy just overhearing people speak English all around me. It was strange to not hear Spanish, but even more strange not having to speak it. Even though I knew I was back in the US, I was still thinking in Spanish, so words like Si o No, Gracias o Disculpe, were automatically slipping out of my mouth…I couldn’t seem to stop them.
Another realization at about this same time was that no one was looking at me. Okay, this might sound strange (and probably a little conceited), so let me explain. In Guatemala, you just get used to people staring at you. I’m a tall blond, it’s not like I can blend in with the people here. Being such a novelty, you tend to get attention wherever you go. After being here for nine months, I am used to having all eyes on me. So walking through the airport and not being the center of attention was surprisingly weird, but unbelievably wonderful.
Finally, I was also conscious of how relaxed I felt. In Guatemala, I always sense that I need to be on my watch. But being back on US soil, I just felt SAFE. I could really let my guard down and trust the people around me. I didn’t think about looking over my shoulder, or constantly having to be aware of my surroundings. And, gracias a Dios, I didn’t have to wear a money belt for a whole week and a half! (Of course, this newfound security could have stemmed from my re-acquaintance with my own personal space. In Guatemala, there is no such thing as ‘breathing room’. You are always surrounded by crowds, up close and personal, whether you are trying to buy stuff in the market or just riding a chicken bus. It’s normal to have your knee in someone’s groin, your butt resting on someone’s arm, or making a human sandwich…yea, not suffocating at all. So needless to say, it was just nice not having people all over me!)
Ok, so before I get to the general luxuries that we are all afforded in life, let me mention one more welcome observation….American MEN! I have to admit, it was an absolute high to see men that weren’t short and dark-skinned. (I was beginning to worry one day when I found myself attracted to a Guatemalan ayudante (what they call the guy that takes your money on a chicken bus)….not only was his zipper down and he had greasy hair, but his two front teeth were gold.)
Now onto the stuff that we all take for granted….
1) Long hot showers without having to wear shower shoes
2) Watching TV (Oh, how I miss Letterman, CNN, CMT, Grey’s Anatomy…basically anything to pass the time after it gets dark)
3) Linked to #2 – Just being aware of what’s going on in the world! Having easy access to the major modes of communication – TV, Internet, Newspapers – to stay on top of current world events…and yes, I did hear that Anna Nicole Smith died last week, thank you very much.
4) A big, comfortable bed with fluffy pillows and a down comforter (I kicked my dad out of my parent’s bed one night so I could sleep on their peace of heaven.)
5) Carpet!!!! (I know this sounds crazy, but you can’t find carpet anywhere in Guatemala…All I wanted to do was roll around in it. To be able to walk around barefoot and not have the bottom of your feet cold and dirty...priceless.)
6) Clean, litter-free streets, parks, and sidewalks – and public TRASH CANS!
7) Convenience and Ease of Life – Being able to hop in your car to get from A to B (Not having to walk half a mile, then catch a ride in a pickup, and then flag down a chicken bus just to get to a meeting that is only 10 miles away), Not having to wait in long lines for no apparent reason, Not having to travel two hours to get money out of an ATM, Stores that are open 24 hours a day/7 days a week (I’m lucky if our local tienda is open for three hours out of the whole day…and who knows when these three hours could be), the list just goes on…
8) Infinite number of Choices – Whether you are browsing at different brands in the grocery store, perusing the menu at a restaurant, or trying to choose a new DVD, we have limitless options for whatever we purchase. Not surprisingly, this isn’t the case in Guatemala…In restaurants, you typically have two meal options, and in most stores, you buy what you can get (which typically means that they carry only one brand) – product competition, what’s that?
9) Diversity of FOOD – Even though I ran into stomach problems while I was home (which means that I have finally adapted to Guatemalan food), I was ecstatic that I wouldn’t be eating beans, tortillas, rice, or eggs for a short while. All places here serve the same things…but when I was home, I went to Outback for a steak, Elizabeth’s Pizza for some pasta, Ghassan’s for a gyro, RuSan’s for sushi, Mac’s for wings, and Red Lobster for some crab legs. Gordita was in absolute heaven:)
10) Having a personal life - I know this is more of a cultural thing, but being able to hang out with friends, go to the GYM or exercise, hang out at a coffee shop, go bowling or to the movies, see BUS play at a local venue, date, etc. The only leisure activities I can find here are hiking and playing in the street with kids.
11) And finally, just being geographically close to friends and family…I had a great trip, and I wish that I could have stuffed everyone in my backpack to bring back to Guatemala!
Returning to Guatemala after my short trip to the US was a lot tougher than I expected. I thought that I was ready to get back; eager to get into a routine again, see my friends, and start work for the New Year. Boy was I wrong! As soon as I walked out of the airport’s exit doors in Guatemala City, I was praying to be back in North Carolina. I didn’t want to face the chicken buses overcrowded with people and smells; I didn’t want to face the hours of traffic and suffocating pollution; I didn’t want to have to speak Spanish again. When I finally made it to my house in Nahuala – which ended up being a two-day affair because of the traffic – I was actually quite depressed for a week or so. I wasn’t ready to be my happy-go-lucky self; to integrate back into the community and make small chit chat, greet everyone again, play with kids in the street, or basically do anything that was asked of me. I just wanted to lock myself up in my house and never leave. I hated that I had to learn Spanish over again…because I had been speaking English for over a month. And, unfortunately, a couple of incidents managed to accentuate this new attitude of mine…
First of all, I’m pretty sure that the owner of my house let someone stay in my bed while I was gone…which probably means that they went through my stuff. Luckily, I kept all my valuables at a friend’s house while I was gone. Also, they turned off my fridge while I was gone (even though I paid them a full month’s rent for my absence)…which means I had to throw everything out, and on my budget, that was quite a blow to the pocket. Of course, my owner denied this, even though the thing was blatantly unplugged. It just sucks when you can’t trust the people you live with!
Second of all, Guatemala was going through a money shortage at the time. I could not get money out of any ATM to save my life. They were all empty! Evidently, the government was planning to introduce new money into circulation, but they managed to do it all wrong. People started scurrying to the banks to get all of their money out and hide it under their mattresses. No one knew what was going on, which made it even scarier. It was like I was stuck in the Great Depression or the Cold War. I was finally able to get cash out of the one and only ATM that still had it…after waiting in a line of 30 people or so. Needless to say, I have been taking out huge chunks of money now, just so I won’t be stuck in a tough spot for next time!
Third, during my first week back, I had three meetings in which I was stood up. Twice, the person was supposed to pick me up by car, and never showed, never called…after I had been waiting for more than an hour and a half (hey, I am getting used to the hour of Chapin, I figured they would eventually show up). When I called to ask what happened, they said they drove by my house but I wasn’t there…which was a complete lie. The third time, the meeting was supposed to start at 8 am; I waited until 9:30 (at this point no one was there) and finally left. Then the guy called me and wanted to know where I was at! Unbelievable…Sometimes I feel like I can’t rely on anyone. It’s impossible to believe a word people say without being a little skeptical now.
Finally, I was just tired of being taken advantage of. Within my first week back in Nahuala, I already had someone ask to borrow money, 2 people ask to borrow my cell phone, and then a woman from one of my groups actually conned me into paying their bus fare. All because I am Gringo and Rich!
I guess the story of my return sounds pretty bad (after reading back through it)…but something happened that turned my whole attitude around. I went to visit the family that I used to live with, and when I knocked on the door, the old grandmother opened up the peephole to see who it was. Once she saw my face, she looked like she was about to have a heart attack. She couldn’t really speak. So I went inside and said hello to the rest of the family, and she came running in speaking hurried Kiche to her daughter. Evidently, she thought I was a ghost! When I left for vacation, she thought that I was leaving for good. She had no clue that I was actually coming back. She was so confused it was hilarious… but after talking with her for awhile, I came to the real gist of the situation. After thanking me a million times over for coming back, I realized that she, just like most in Nahuala, was used to people coming into town for a short period of time and then disappearing. It’s almost like abandonment to them…Gringo comes in to help with development, but then gets the hell out of there once their job is through. Sad, but true.
Anyways, this is Guatemala, and I’m glad to be back…there are always gonna be days that are rough, but then something happens (like my encounter above) that makes you stop and smile and know why you are here and what you are doing…
This is the world. It is not chaos but only disorder. Dirt is the norm. Bad water is the norm. Filthy toilets are typical. Stinks are natural, and all dogs are wild. If you walk barefoot, hookworms bore into the balls of your feet. Stretch out your arm and mosquitoes inject sleeping sickness into it. Sit still for a moment and fleas leap onto your body. Embrace your lover and you get lice. Because this is the world. America is very unusual.
--Paul Theroux
Have a great weekend my peeps,
Carin
